This piece was a sketch I made in my garden during the first lockdown, it was a couple weeks before my 20th birthday and I couldn't help but feel like time was running away from me.
I had to think about my cake, to try and keep things as normal as possible, yet I couldn't help this overwhelming sense that time was slipping past me. I know I'm still young, but when I look around me I see so many young people that are already on their path on the way to achieving their dreams. Some have fame already, some have people to love them and then there's me, having no idea what I want from life and completely alone.
My intentions were to make a sarcastic cake, a sweet treat that made me giggle but ultimately reflect on the present stage of my life... which was... which IS hopelessness.
This sketch was done with watercolor pencils and water, it took around a day all together to complete.
Birthdays are supposed to be happy events, meeting up with family and enjoying a cup of tea. This year we were all working, in separate rooms for most of the day then finally together in the afternoon.
So it ended up, when I was making my birthday cake, I actually turned this little sketch into the real thing.
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