woman

This piece was made during a strange time when I was trying for the life of me to create what I thought was 'good' art. I kept being told by my family that realistic and beautiful art is best, to create a nice picture and that's all I'll have to do to do well.

However, I learnt after making this piece that this couldn't be further from the truth. During my presentation it became clear that this painting is one of my worst, all because there is no meaning behind it. Which is completely true, there is no weight behind this image, it was just made for the sake of being made, in hopes that I could please the people around me.

I learnt a valuable lesson with this painting, that art isn't about realism, it's about the emotions that you convey with your medium.

I think I really needed to learn this to completely let go and adopt the abstract. Never before have I felt so understanding of abstraction, it is shedding all the beauty and showing the raw parts of life.

Going forward I want to show this divide between the realistic and the abstract. I want to show the struggle for power I have had, and which one will ultimately come out on top.